a colored spectrum

when it rains, it pours.

i'm frustrated and depressed.

went to the archives today. there's 174 rolls of microfilm on Straits Settlemment.
without indexes! i really doubt i'll be able to collect anything on religions statistics too.
colonial government weren't interested in such data thus they won't exist!

doesn't help that Uncle Tong isn't around.
can't wait for tmrw, then i can declare that i tried but could not find pre-1900 statistics.
at max there were some personal accounts and bibliographies but these are all qualitative data.
there's some books on coming of the churches as well. but ain't helpful to my work.

Prof wants NUMBERS. books were meant to be my last resort. oh well.

suddenly, i wish that time will just fly by and 6 weeks are over.
suddenly i don't wish to extend my term.
working without an adviser isn't really helpful. and he didn't give me a clear directory either.
wtf!

but i guess even if i was deported to China, i will be as depressed and frustrated too.
there is a different set of problems arising from interpersonal relationships but still problematic.
here i know that once at least i pass the 1921 phrase, i can be more relieved.

bottomline is: $8+ an hr is actually quite difficult to earn. yet spending money is easy.

today was a bad day.
first i was late for school. i don't know why but i took so long to leave my house.
then, i waited for a damn bus for 20mins, only to take 2 bus stops and realize it's the wrong bus!
when i wanted to take a bus back into NUS, it started to pour heavily and i was drenched.
as i was about to go for lunch, i ran into Vance (2nd place to Eileen the whale).
holy cow, can't my day get any worst???!!!

ended up having lunch with him. GOSH.
he kept going on about himself and his girlfriend. yes, the one with a kid.
he is taking a test for insurance agents and will work with his girlfriend.
he kept asking me about Benny and claims that he's one of their group.
and he said that money to him is most important.

whatever. i am so disinterested in his life or events.
don't even wanna be running into him, but unluckily, i do. y-u-c-k-s.

seriously, i wonder why these people... Benny and Vance etc...
they can live without God's love? without a religion? without Jesus?
pity. missing out on all the eternal rewards awaiting in heaven. Praise the Lord Jesus!

posted by Veen @ 16:56